I no longer want to hide all of my pain inside., I had to set aside my pride I had to decide if I wanted to hop aboard the pitty potty boo fucking hoo poor me poor fucking you hot mess express ride it's where we all carry a lot of stress, where we suppress, obsess, we don't have much success, most of us are depressed , unimpressed, under dressed, some not dressed , we are all a hot fucking mess! Don't get it twisted, I'm a hot messiest mess out of all the mess! I will groom you, I'll have you by my side I will caress your chest while you rest, Ill relieve you from all of your stress, help u get dressed better yet help you get undressed I have to confess I begin to obsess about you , and just the thought of it being you that I'm about to finesse. I will admit that you may not be so impressed. After I leave you behind with the all of the rest.. I'll make you believe I'm your ride or die! Honestly I'm too blessed to be stressed but I am little pressed for time. "All passengers please keep to yourselves because you will encounter manipulating masterminds . and all they do is rob, cheat, and lie, lie, lie! " "Now, buckle up it's going to be a bumpy ride." "Welcomed aboard I will be your guide." There is no help for me! No matter how loud I speak or how I misspeak I will always be a certified liar,thief and sneak! There is no hope, I don't have the skills to cope, i should just hang myself by a double knotted thick ass rope! Maybe snort coke and dope! I'm tired of being that sad and depressed mope. Maybe I'd better off if I elope . I can't stand myself i hate me, I don't want people to let me be, I need people to just let me be the real me. I no longer want to clean up the crime scene. I want to stand out with arms opened wide to the sky scene and i wanna proudly scream. " I am no longer a DOPEPHIEN i am NOW a HOPEPHIEN!" I mean, What do I have to do to be heard and seen? I wish I could just stay clean. Only one can dream. I just wanna do the right thing. Although , I have a decision to make, which path do I choose? There is a no win , win situation. All that is left is a win, lose elimination, a termination , disctimination not discrimination, always a stipulation miscalculation and accusations fuck all of them aligations and ramifications do i even meet the qualifications? I no longer want any drama or complications, nor implications all of my frustrations awakens when manipulations start to follow through just to spook you! BITCH BOO! I want to be done with this shit too! I'm leaving it all behind My past will NOT define me,? im reclaiming my power, redefining my name. I already played and won this game. I already claimed my fame! I now walk with my held high, no more carrying the weight of shame.