im trying I don't know how to get through thisyou died was livin life like yousaid screw it andim aboutto lose my shit idont know how I'm going to get through thisor do this you died and I'm about to lose it tbenncrying but it isn't doin shit shit how do i get threw this time's flying I cantdonothingthat helps mecalm down i just. wwanna ruin shithow do i recover im so lost i just dont wannabe doin dothisso heart brtoke new to this not shit is stabletnotable to dothisyour gone and im blue acrying but it still isn't helping me get through thisnee need someone to tell me how that you do this because myself I can't seem to figure out how to get through this theysay you got to grieve to heal but I don't want to grieve I'll never make it through this I feel i need them I need a grieving pill like a bunch of Xanax to be ableto handdle it to do this that's just me keeping it real cuz yeah I'm not strong enough to deal with all this to deal with the losses I can't sleep at night because all my turns and tosses sucks getting close to people and then we lose them I wish I knew how God went about choosing them cuz sometimes he takes people that he shouldn't they're too young too good it should be way too early for them to go away. im trying I don't know how to get through this you died and I'm about to lose it tried crying but it didn't do shit time's flying I want nothing to do with itim no closer to beeing used to this i almost throw up when i think about how we cant wait to grow up this is what there is to look forward too its bull. shitlosing people we are close too i wish we could go back to being little life is a mystery one big riddleinstead of growing old maybe it be alright to stay in the middlekno oone would dieit would be fine give peace of mind im trying I don't know how to get through this you died and I'm about to lose it tried crying but it didn't do shit time's flying I want nothing to do with it im so confused it makes me sick loved ones dieing is bull shit you died and I'm about to lose it God why did you have to choose them some lives are taken way too soon ya no lie it's got me so confusedi don't know what to do nowits too soon you gotme so confused to you no lie it's got me so confused ya too soon you got me to send you no lie it's got me so confused to send you got me to I try but I can't seem to move on why do I get to stay but you got to be gone there's got to be another way cuz I just can't stand to be alone I can't stand going by your house and you're not home why do I get to stay and you don't my life ain't the same with you gone I try but I can't seem to move on sometimes I just need to be alone you passed way too soon itskilling me I'm afraid I'll be forever feeling grief take back saying things I didn't mean I pray when I go you'll be greeting me they say everything happens for a reason there's no way that makes it any easier the holidays seem to make it even worse the pain stays it don't seem to leave nomore I'm trying I don't know how to get through this you died and I'm about to lose it tried crying but it didn't do shit time's flyin I want nothing to do with it I'm trying I don't know how to get through this you died and I'm about to lose it tried crying but it didn't doyou diedand ima mess shit time's flyin I want nothing to do with ityou died and ima wreck i wish i knew how to get you backthats a factlife was better i need you back keep me on track you died and I'm about to lose it God why did you have to choose them some lives are taken way too soon ya no lie it's got me so confused now I'm trying I don't know how to get through this you died and I'm about to lose it God why did you have to choose them you took a brother and a friend there is no replacing him no otherthisisgrim e i s