The more I write the quicker she's outta my life . This is just temporary Moving Forward That day was all a blur. What I do remember is feeling so alone. Even when I was in the same room as her. She had a way of making it all of my fault., she even made me to believe that all of her mistakes I needed to own. "it wasn't me it was you, you did this, " I'm not sure what happened or what I was thinking? Allowing myself to get caught up with a girl who couldn't stop drinking. . Let's be real though, she has several alter egos.egosdon't know what I was thI still stayed after realizing her biggest problem was her drinking. If I knew I was going to be in a relationship with her mother back when we started to date I would've just let that one be handled by fate. And Her mother alone is like a slithering snake in the this shit probably wouldn't have happened if I just followed my gut feeling. To many spits in my face from you to me and not enough shits given anymore after all those times I have to kick down the door. Still been waiting all day. Don't you have anything to say? I'm too tired of the games she s playing I feel like I'm always in the way I can't wait for a new day. When. I don't think about this shit, until a day that I'm not sick, I can't wait for the day that I don't have to stop and ask myself why, or stop feeling like I wanna die. I can't wait for the day that I stop being mistreated, the day that I can stop reacting and get those thoughts out of my head of me beating her! Be Or what about the thought of me leaving her! I hate to admit this but I use to cut my wrists so I don't feel anything!!!!I have this whole family fucking jealous! All because I have friends who have my back all of the time 24/7!!.! I just want to be rid of you and stop being ridiculed. Stop talking down to me, stop treating me as if I'm a nobody, you make me wanna run . You would wanna treat me like I'm a somebody. Bitch I'mma about to catch a body!This is no longer what I want. I'm glad your so optimistic, about our relationship , I'm a realist so let's be realistic let's be idealistic this ship has sinked so you and you mom can go live on that ship , aboard the ship like your in the titanic you 2 could be jack and rose but in this story you both sink! And here I am moving forward gotta gooooo