there comes a time in every man's life that he comes to his senses and changes himself,puts a little effort into him its the time to tighten up the belt. the long road ahead can be warm or it could be cold as hell. wait them feet can swell long path with no souls for sale well who can tell just me, oh well nobody hits me up nobody calls my cell oh well i fell into the depths of hell nightmares everynight so no sleep its part of the society that's got control of me but knowingly if I'm going deep you wouldn't understand that pain bestowed to me it is in a league of its own bold, heavy, harder than stone all my life i worked hard grinding mybones got a wife and tried for a home. 4 beautiful kids together to call or own i remember feeling like a king up on his thrown. you didnt see it but i was so happy you were by my side, even though my insecurities of feeling worthless, unworthy, negatively hurt me and you its like i knew and did it to myself on purpose but the thoughts urge in brewed into a storm surges of circling versions rage in behind closed curtains burden the weight of feeling caged in beating myswlf up for another mistake again but never was clever enough to put my foot down ,size it all up and speak a tomgue thats not getting root bound. its just my first flaw drawed the straw take the blame cause i love them all