always feeling like the bad guy when only tryna change for the better of someone else i rather stay the same am i insane? or just off track like runaway trains try to pray but evertime i do its double the pain seeming weak behind the scenes tho im strong in the paint incomplete? maybe still im thankful for my gains is it wrong to question everything? is being self centered vain? am i product of my environment who to blame? is it me or just a theory i must of been born with beer goggles cause i can't see clearly in the storm i fear hardly holding on to life dearly im a fighter down to go twelve rounds swinging sincerely life can beat me up but i wont stay down im a king in my own eyes no need for a crown narcissistic? i dont know but no need to bow down to people who only wanna see you struggle and drown sick of crying like my baby boy hope that he mine no diss to his mamna yes i believe she'll never lie but why i feel she empty when i look her eyes prolly cause she traumatized from all the rage i provide not her fault i cover lies like dicks uncircumcised keeping it real leaves a hurtful pride ill nothing worse than trying bills what we dying fo like what fuck we trying fo the grass look greener on the other side am i goat cow antelope or a deer and why cant i cope with alcohol and scream till i feel a damaged throat a dream life is nothing but rather be a lesson than a meme i cant stress enough when you love whats messing up ya scheme to live free redeem guees im just a nigga use to taking one for the team na..mean? time i change the whole scene either that or go supreme