I don't understand why they can't see that I'm not okay that I'm really not me Just tryna find the place where I can really start to speak I can talk about the days when I really banged in the streets Just like everyone else but I'm tryna find my peace And I'm a fucking man so you can keep your sympathies I just need a release and all the time this smile is in one piece I'm doing okay and I'll be driving to the coast to take my final toke jump Into the sea if it ever breaks Put it I'm gods hands cause that's what it takes to know if you should go or you should stay And they just say I should pray but I been praying my whole And maybe it's just a waiting game but I been waiting alot of time Step inside My head and it will scare you what you find I got demonised when I lost my shit cause no one saw how hard I fucking tried So much shit going round in my fucking mind does my son remember me will my daughter be okay Shit I think about everyday But to the world I'm okay I don't know why they don't see That I'm not what they make me to be I was raised in the system so I never had the support of a family You got no idea what I've been throw what I've had to see And I don't wanna see no tears in your eyes cause there's no tears in mine I had a lot of emotion but that was once upon a time Everyday I push myself to the max and I ain't getting no sleep Cause I don't want my kids to be brought up like me A condition that I can never get rid off makes me um employable So to the plug I gotta stay loyal I gotta take it all But I gotta keep that shit invisible to my babies I gotta be Mr incredible And I swear to god its stressful I gotta question is it even worth it I do this all for me boy and I don't see him not even on a birthday I do all of this for my girl and she gets used against me in the worse way And the women I've always loved I don't think o even had in the first place The look on her face when she walked into our place all cause of her fams hate Cause I tried to help everyone and got fucked in the worse way I guess it's hard to be something that you've never had how can you preach when you've never practised How can I trust when I've only ever trusted in the man hanging round my neck made out of plastic I was siitting behind four walls praying to a gift from the chaplain I did it for the guys and right reason so I'm not complaining Praying for my family and my babies while this times ticking I swear when I touch these roads again it will be different They all hate while I'm away but love me while I stand with them I'm a king when I walk in the place bunning the haze they can't help but gaze And even when it's not lit there's always smoke to blaze If you don't believe me fuck around and make reach for waist