I, I wanna point out some mistakes in life like when my girl cheated on me with my best friend that was pretty screwed up but I forgot about that shit already I just wish somebody actually cared about people's feelings and didnt eat away at each other's fucking feelings people gnawing inside me on the heart I got no more love to share except to my family I love my momma dearly even though she chose meth instead of me I found my daddy's pistol where he hide it at and pointed it at my heart thinking nobody will fucking care if I leave then my brother came outta nowhere and slapped the gun I shot my knee and bleed I woke up in a fucking hospital thinking heaven at last I thought it would come faster but no here I am doctor walked in asked if I was alright I said no where's the gun I gotta finish the job I gotta get outta here doctor said call in the therapist now and he told me everything will be ok I told him no fuck you ya stupid bitch I wanna leave I dont got time to play games i dont wanna deal with momma leavin again and daddy going out with his black friends always coming back bloody I dont want to hear my brothers cry to sleep no more I wanna stop crying myself to sleep I wanna stop taking drugs to make fall asleep or to make me feel better I wanna stop going to the therapist for my mental health I wanna stop tryna take care of my family single handed I wanna stop going out with daddy and getting in shoot offs