Feeling like a sidekick Never feel excited The flashing lights are blinding Why I hear a Siren Resonance is damning Coming back from damage With what I could salvage Met up with satan He told me something sacred I can never say it Or else I’d face anguish Eternal damnation Now my minds racing Shall I have patience Shall I sacrifice this For the greater sake of shit I commit sacrilegious sin An save my kin So Is this a testament to them if I fit in If I resist the itch to scratch the tickin time bomb which lays within my craniem, I might Omit something gargantyouan And what god wants. Is this a trick Satan led me on, placed in my brain in case I let the live grenade go off, making him able to take over my unstable conscious thoughts, he wrought fabricated and dangerous bonds tied Between my ocd n loved ones “Do they truly think I hate them”, “am I really a con?” marinade in self loathing “do they want me gone?” Is all of my constant pain something I brought on To my self? I’ve been feeling like I’ve fallen off the shelf Just a picture inna frame, yea nothing fucking else A detrimental change gave my whole family hell Memories of me now turns to existential dwells Agonizing torture too incomprehensible to be felt I’ve given my family trauma My ghost is purely haunting Each step is deep in lava My soul in purgatory falling My momma saw me hanging Color on my face was changing Her whole body was shaking Her pure heart now breaking Baby boy, had a fight with satan Baby boy, did not make it Baby boy, did not make it What did baby boy do why did baby boy do How could baby boy do Baby boy, is a scar that never heals Baby boy, your fate don’t feel real Baby boy, your bro and sis miss you Baby boy, can you please come home soon Baby boy, the dogs miss their boy too Baby boy please come home soon Baby boy what did we do to you Baby boy we hope that it isn’t true That your baby boy chose himself over all of you. Your Baby boy left all of you, baby boy hurt all of you, baby boy didn’t think what it do to you Baby boy did what he always wanted to do Family contemplate if they could tell All the signs that I wasn’t doing well They knew I dealt with mental health They felt I hid everything to himself Wasn’t the kid they knew and loved They saw my face but felt a shell Digging deeper down just to shell Away from the agonizing pain of how they felt that follows fables, something far to big to keep hidden Sacrilege Of…..alongside him Promises never binding