why do I always do this why do I choose to ruin shit why was I so rude to you till you left why do I have excuses for always being such a wreck why didn't I pay attention to what you said why didn't I have the best of intentions before you left why do I always mention things from your past why can't I get my head straight and stop dwelling on shit like that and why when I drink do I say just one more glass why do I say I have your back but I'm the only one that causes you to hurt like that why do I make the same mistakes I've made in the past why can't I relate to what you say if it means having you stay is what's at stake you ask why do I always dream I'm stuck in some horrible place why do I make tears roll down your adorable face why do these years go by they seem more like days and why do my fears bring out uncontrollable rage why is it when I need you more do I closed the door in your face why do I ignore the fact that I've done this before nothing has changed why do I do these things that I do why when it comes to relationships do I say I've been broken jaded and used why do I feel hated when I'm the one shouting foul language causing you anguish just to be rude as you stand toe to toe showing your the bravest and for that all I wanna say is Startin today i aim to change this my old ways I'm done away with tomorrow's a new day but were starting today with this i got alot of demons I'm ready to go to face to face with feels like it's all been a dream filled with all the hateful things I did im glad that movies over and replaced with this its my life part 2 with a great new script the sequel it's the greatest yet and I erased the hate but the regrets are hard to take but it's time to man up and face em today I wish I could erase all the breaks you heart had to take I would replace them with a safe loving embrace take you in my arms and say I'm sorry for being such a disgrace keep you smiling never bring you harm and stop the tears from Rollin down your face and say I love you