This incredible beat was prod. @projectvbaked Wrote this for the contest, but also for some therapy. My dad’s dementia is proving to be the biggest challenge for us but I ain’t never abandoning him. @rapfame_official @rapfame_ar_team @rapfamebot Memory is a fickle thing Might make you cry or maybe wanna sing Sometimes it’s all that pulls me back from the brink When all I do is ruminate and try not to sink Lately I been feeling like I’m boutta drown Like I’m lost in the woods with no way to be found Like I’m screaming in a crowd, no one hears a sound Sometimes I don’t know how I stick around Sitting on the ground, tryna get my mind right When my dads dementia hits, I try to fly, right Losing hearing in an ear, now I’m scared to lose my sight Dark times make me think about the highlights Like when he taught me how to hit a ball over the roof Gave me moonshine one time, ain’t allowed no juice Respect my elders, don’t let the pain loose and don’t accuse someone without first having the proof My screws are loose, it’s been like ten years of this shit Good memories in my youth, now the pain hits I swear I’m tryna give my mental a different shift But dementia has me fucked up, it’s causing a rift My thoughts, they drift, and I can’t fight the shame inside I never learned how to deal with pain so I just run and hide I sit and cry and wonder how I have the gall to still get high Instead of sitting with my pops, but it hurts to see He still talking shit but he no longer recognize me Confusion in his eyes is scary and we Never know how to handle it so we curse disease Memory is a fickle thing Might make you cry or maybe wanna sing Sometimes it’s all that pulls me back from the brink When all I do is ruminate and try not to sink I pray, Lord please heal him from this kinda sick I must say when I was younger I was such a dick I always acted like I could be so slick, But that time he popped me in my mouth, I respected quick At times he’ll mix me up with my older brother He forgets all of us now, except just my mother We tryna stay strong but fight with one another Tensions run high, there’s no order here to govern I feel angry as fuck when he walks with pain If someone said life was like this, I would scream deranged And I hate to see his face when he starts to change Sundowning hits hard, I’m trying to use my brain His anger brings fear, his wet shorts bring shame I feel insane, like how can someone lose their memories? Don’t he remember all the time that he spent with me? Don’t know how to handle this, and respectfully Motherfuck who abandoned him, they dead to me He got me, I swear I’ll never leave his side Good memories in my youth, so with pain I’ll ride But he don’t know how much it meant, last night I cried Thinking of all the ones I love about to die Pops I been focused on mom, her illness more acute Dont think I’m ever here to give you the boot I’m getting thru it in therapy and I’m finding the root But you’re still the best dad, and that’s the whole truth I love you to death, and I’m grateful that I have you Thanks for always being there, memories will get me thru #WATC #WeAreTheChildren #FickleMemory #contest #dementia #grief #family #therapyrhymes