there are no more barriers to cross all I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane the vicious and the evil all the Mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed my pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others I want no one to escape but even after admitting this there is no catharsis my punishment continues to elude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling this confession has meant nothing