Been going through changes god In my heart but the devil standing on my shoulders this addiction I’m tryin beat big like boulders don’t know if I’ll make it out say I wanna change but don’t know how I pray to get better but the evil thoughts ruin my mind I’d smoke but weed makes me feel like I’m tripping already paranoid all the time had a dream that ima die soon but I hope Jesus sees through my lines then cuts out all the lies maybe that’s why I lost the bitch that was never mines said I loved her wait never mind constant agony, deep thoughts, and depression make me feel outta place been so drunk for like years iv been in space never listened to nobody I’m introverted I need my space I do miss kissing that girl on her pretty face but I know I’m the reason she walked away thank god I don’t have a gun because I’d blow my Brains all over the place tired of being like this asking god please take me outta pain I’m begging to be better than I was before I don’t wanna sleep on the floor of getting to drunk I didn’t want to pay attention I just wanted to ignore everyone that I had walked right out that fuckin door said I’m gone can’t do this shit no more but I remember I have a family who’s always been there for me time an again when I go blow my ashes in the wind suicidal thoughts got my mind racing again my hearts to cold like a igloo, yeah the one people be in I be hearing voices telling me to end it all but I know that’s the devil within need it out of my head so I don’t think of this shit again