coming across a point in life im standing on top of an x like the treasure ive been digging for since an adolescent pretending i was Eminem as if i can be the real slim shady well maybe i can be just like him .... my lifes never been easy and this music aint shitt butta way i vaycay into a better mental before setting my fist on lips talking shit like throwing bricks so what if this is it my hearts beating hoping my pain can get me motivated cause i aint doing shit please lord open my eyes cause this cant be true i need clarivoience so i can make sense with what i dont understand consciously obnoxiously subconscious wins im back where i was like a rerun im ready for what ever comes im up up up in the air chasing a cloud only problems im pushing against the wind and I'm drifting off again days to night i dream while all ive feard to ever become is what i became a living nightmare the past has really damaged my head flash backs happen cant stop running from reasons yall out the neck with the anger why you mad at me tripping if yall cared youd help me figure out whats my trip laces tied so on tens ima stray to any way better then this forced to lose cause im destand to win fuck it let me fall ive been outta reach well before any one decided to lend a hand dont get it twisted i gott plenty riding with me willing to give me it all ina second but i cant bare stomach success if i aint earn it ive become a paper weight holding on to this list crossing out all i did still fingers just freestyle in cursive listening to this pin begging me to get a better grip and write i dont even know half of what i write until im looking at it it twice after i break focous wiping tears from my eyes my visions blurry and i wanna drive off a cliff i know what im seeing cant be what it is ima stack some bars and go as far as i can with all my achievements wait i aint ever actually achieve shit only benefit from these scripts is remembering how hard it was before and how hard it gets let it get harder im losing life like its already ripped right along side the time that slips cause the tears that dripped are the same ones dropping right here words listening too how sincere my signature can bee if i keep these headphones playing with beats musics what saves me so this advice can maybe stop the madness deiving me crazy