every time I see you it's always so messed, I'm saying I need God, and to be blessed, I'm crazy heartless but still obsessed, need you believe you, I'm losing my mind, every day I see you but im losing to much time, wish all the pain would just go away, this pain in my head keeps pushing me this way and that, my heart pounding 280 flat...am I just crazy or do u still need me, or am I just holding on to the edge of insanity, waiting for the right time to fly, can you just tell me, should I stay or just die...answers ive asked myself, do I really give a fuck, about my health, or wealth, what does it prove, makes me feel like I'm just that dude, no way to live, but I want to give, and give back what I've took, maybe I just write that in my next book, the time has past, went fast spent cash no gain, just pain, all I've seen,is i drank too much, now I'm clean, from the liquor that made me numb, but out of touch, no way to stand, but now I'm back to make a plan, or demand, that I never fall, I stay up and motivate, stay true how I operate, keep my faith, and belief in God, I am just trying to understand, but you nod, say yes it can be, yes it's a choice, you all need to be awake and use your voice and never break, or ever be fake, or say you hate, or can't take, what is given, or deny what you gave, live right try to behave, go hard in your dreams, be real and listen close to the voices inside of your head, choices are dead changes, are made, you can do this don't be afraid, your already made, don't need to be fake, your top grade, about to get paid, go get that fade, your dreams are awake, memories I have, I can't really take, I'm awake, been trying to get cake, the whole rack, maybe a dimepiece, or someone who gets me, or let's me. be me, not a control freak, a narcissist, mad every day of the fucking week, I cry myself to sleep, doesn't mean I'm weak, just having troubles with the feelings of defeat, believe me, I'm ready and on fire, but how long will it last, you admire, someone being an outcast, the voices you hear are only them demons trying to get out, put thoughts in your head, pushing doubt, what's that about, don't worry, I got you, I'm heaven sent, that's the choices we make, or how it was supposed to went, but make a turn, that's the time your posed to learn, God never leaves you, nor hates, debates nor deceives you, always there to pick you up, even after you've overloaded your cup, it's always the choices we make, voices we take, listen closer be awake...but don't break down when you know your perfect head to toe, when your ready, that all will show, you won't feel the pain, the anxiety, will be better, just listen to the voices inside your head....you'll know...time will pass, you will be able to be ahead of the class, mindset, no regret, you bet, no worries,no hate, no bullies, the worst fate, can't wait, it's never too late, just be great, don't hurt, put good vibes, stay cute, be happy, smile back, give them what they lack....always be you, and never try to be me, I'm just a thought, not reality, I was what dreams were made of, heaven sent full of love, I've tried my best to achieve my goals, even when I was being chased by them trolls...