its like i was always the one watching now its my own memories haunting me from getting dolloars. moves i shoulda made, instead thinking i was brave. turn my into a slave, chains and shackels the bringer of pain. i guess i can't fix time, so i decided to change me life. thinking twice, my intuition an opinion being sacrificed. i wanna be souly rite. nobody witness the deamonds im fighting. war wounds and scars, runningn deep beneath the scabs. saving all my crumbs to make scraps. i thought i had a map, but that was long ago like everything eles its made its way into the trash thought i was first place, but i was really last. took a break and heard everyone laughing. the sight of things been hard to grasp. hurts me to ask, thinking id be the one theyd never past. waking up on fire, candels burning it didnt takje a match. 3rd degree burns on my body, from not moving to fast. but i still survived, thats just anotherjj day in the past. cops telling me i shouldnt have made it the day i woke up upsidedown when my jeep crashed. you woulda thought i was faking, llike mr rodgers, this aint the kand of make believe i got real problems. women and drama, more money and karma. alterier motives had me believe i was the problem. into mathmatics im trying to solve the problems. its like nothing theses days adding up. knew i was strong but not build tough. been threw alot, i think ive seen enough. just wanna bury my head underneath theses covers. and never talk about the memories that make them jealous. one of the good fellows, getting roasted like marshmallows. i was the ruñer up not knowinb what im up against still war ready, cause i feel im heaven sent. this weight got me bent, I shoulda listened whe they told me to leave this shit. nobody made the path easy to getting rich. gotta watch where im stepping, cause outta bounds its hella weapons. thorns infected, kissin ass aint no antiseptic. im fully hydrated and rejected., missing in action, bearly receiving blessings. all alone screaming while changing my dressings. this pain willh make a sain man psychotic all theses medications got me feeling robotic cant take a shit without being able to call my doctor. ass on fire like, i am not a rotcket. when its my time to blow, please don't stop it.