I’m at a war within my self I never felt fear so real now I need your help Dear God I never really asked for much Just a few true friends who I can pass a Dutch My family hurt me so I don’t keep in touch My friends had my back since attending church At school at lunch We was cool and such These fools went drugs What it did to us Started hanging round a gang and how it change them I’ll Never forget the way they allow the pain to drown out the sounds of the ones that truly be around The ones you pushed away and now I’m thinking about Taking down All the doubt Push you out Moving on Sad it’s taken me so long You said that your my friend but nah Racist talk and only want Some money why you hit me up I got some weed on deck I don’t need that bro No disrespect I just need to know Am I really yo friend since 12 years old Day ones since the sandbox before these phones If not say so I’ll leave you alone I’ve been dealing with some demons for a really long time I’ve been weak but not dumb and I can see you hiding You tweak don’t eat and think your brothers are blind You think and I know that’s the difference of mind I’m white im wrong just say that then if God thinks that we won’t talk again How does my skin make me a sin Before life begins I get I get it I know It’s in the bible but tell me who wrote You cannot do that Cus we do not know I kinda feel bad You was my bro Now I’m an enemy Didn’t do anything If this is religion I made a decision I’m no longer Christian I have a new vision It’s God why I’m living so I’ll pay him attention build a relation with source of creation the breath that I take in be used against Satan. In my opinion it’s pointless existing if God really hates me then my time was wasted I tried being patient This needed addressed Those pages are ancient that turned into text Passages tainted by demons in flesh He said to kill Children that bare disrespect To their parents and willed it they be put to death That is not love I get it I get it I know It’s in the Bible so it must be so You yelled at your momma since 11 years old So when were you murdered please let me know Every word ever formed yes it has a source But it’s absurd to serve a God that will treat me worse Just because I’m white I never had a choice No chance I dance with the demons within I guess I never resisted those devils I’m just the same You don’t remember You tempted me Cocaine Had to brush my teeth Just a taste all it did to me Just in case you think I’m scared Why I wrote a song Instead of being there You would pull a gun Never playing fair You sold me weed I blessed your air When you would leave I’d be in prayer Hanging round the gang and how it changed you I’ll never really figure out The way you doubt people when yourself is wild. Are you