This year crazy but I still love you I always adore you I'm always looking for you I want some more of you I can't believe what has happened between you and I sometimes I just wanna die so i sit there and cry knowing that i did wrong and now you gone and I'm all alone nobody to come home to no one even fucks with the dude and here i thought i was so cool now I'm looking like uh fool should of stuck to da rules no need to act the part now it's a long way past and out on my ass but even worst then that I'm bout to be a new dad but she keeping me in the dark on that can't fight back what good is that I had many chance and fucked off each task so dont get mad just learn from all the times you treated her bad.this shit hurts but I pray it uh get betta over the time need to focus on I to become uh better man so for my women I can protect and guide and give her pride to hold her head high and now when she crys it's because she has true love in her life and she happy to know what that feels like to finally be loved by someone and it's true not the fake love so now I'm going to have to give him my all from here on out and if it's not with her I still hope she gets what she deserves and it's truly should have been me but I was blind and I couldn't see but now all I want is you next to me but I see that that cannot be what the hell it has happened we used to be so cool you used to be so nice everything was so lovely now it's all ugly like rugby need to find a way to make it up I spend the rest of my life I just want you to be my wife I want you back in my life but I'm afraid did that can't be I made my choice so now I got to live with it and that hurts I'll try better next time around if that's another around