Full Potential

Can’t keep looking back, I just gotta reach my potential Even tho I’m so shaky I’m still writing with stencils Life out here beating me bad, swear I’m starting to feel mental Gotta keep myself together, take care of my parentals I dead feel like I need to be pushed to the limits Been taking life more serious, like I’m in it to win it Gotta get my strength like Popeye and eat all of my spinach My ex out here posting her man, I’m tryna ignore the image I reached my limit, still out here trying to give myself better Sometimes it feels so dark I wanna start writing them letters Heat don’t work, got me walking around the house in a sweater One day I swear imma become a trendsetter When I met her, I was in the same position Life falling apart around me but I’m a man on a mission But back then I didn’t feel all of this division Or the distance that made it hard for me to listen My mind the worst kinda mental prison (Spoken) Gotta keep going. No matter how many curveballs life throws at me, I just gotta keep fighting. Gone are the days where I give up so easily. They really depending on me to hold it down now. Time to reach my full potential. Locked up in my brain and I’m just tryna break out Lately I spent my money on weed and take out Used to be that the game room was the safe house But now it’s the closet with the lights, no seven minutes and no make out A fake out is how I’ve been surviving all my life By this point in the game, thought I would have a wife I thought I’d have someone to hold close in the middle of the night Never thought I’d be thinking of terrible things with a knife Never thought that my heart would turn into ice None of this nice, but I know I got it in me to survive And one day I’ll hear someone bumping me as I drive I’ll spend money on all the ones who kept me alive I think it’s time for me to finally thrive I gotta keep my motivation, no search for inebriation When I hear the urges calling I just gotta change the station There’s nothing I can do now to change the situation I need my ego and emotions to get some separation I’m patient but I need something to fall thru Look at myself in the mirror and say all we need is you What more can I do? The fact I survived the worst is testament to everything true Time to deal with something new