I know everyday we wake up with up a heart beat in our chest is a blessing in the sky's I realize we all live with trauma but misery is the only friend I know now Because nothing last forever I live with no regrets Everything I do is for the ones I love, I wouldn't change a thing Lately I've been fading away praying to god but he never answer's I've lost alot of friends but I still won't give up even though I'm dying inside No one understands the pain that we go through I'm always wondering if I'm doing right or if I'm doing wrong I just want the ones I love to remember me for I know not what I've done The only thing I fear is myself because everyone needs to prepare for when the reaper comes to visit If I died tonight I know that I gave it my all because when you look in my eyes you see the pain I've gone through to make it out Lord I pray that this isn't it because I have more to give I know we haven't seen eye to eye lately but I'm fighting the demons in my brain I see the light in the darkness because as I walk through this hell your with me god I think it myself because I'm having nightmares of a childhood I couldn't have My mind is filled with pain and I walk this path alone My friend's always tell me there's more to life than death I can't help but think that when the reaper comes to visit It'll be over soon Every girl I ever loved broke my heart and made me into the man I am today I wouldn't change a thing I blessed that I got to feel loved because I've learned that life is a blessing not a curse But I'm reaching my breaking point because I'm addicted to drugs it's the only thing ik is true It made me feel alive but I'm closer with the devil inside me than the friends I have around I wake up gotta get a bump go to sleep wondering when it's gonna end The pain and struggle is real but I do what I do because I love everyone and everything but life is to short to hold on to the past so I'm letting go Before it's to late I see the light in the darkness because as I walk through this hell your with me god I think it myself because I'm having nightmares of a childhood I couldn't have My mind is filled with pain and I walk this path alone My friend's always tell me there's more to life than death I can't help but think that when the reaper comes to visit It'll be over soon Every girl I ever loved broke my heart and made me into the man I am today I wouldn't change a thing I blessed that I got to feel loved because I've learned that life is a blessing not a curse But I'm reaching my breaking point because I'm addicted to drugs it's the only thing ik is true It made me feel alive but I'm closer with the devil inside me than the friends I have around I wake up gotta get a bump go to sleep wondering when it's gonna end The pain and struggle is real but I do what I do because I love everyone and everything but life is to short to hold on to the past so I'm letting go Before it's to late Smoke a blunt to the face so I can get high life is to short to hold grudges friends and family is all we have in this wrld I smoke weed and do blow so I can escape this reality because I know the pain in my heart to well to know there's no room for hate I give my all so that everyone can be happy one day Because as I stand on this edge alone I realize I'm closer to the coffin than anything but I'll never stop fighting you'll have to shoot me before I give up I pray to you lord hear me now I need answer's not more questions plz I've lost my way but ik that my path ends with you because in order for me to fly away I have to fall first and I can't do it alone I'm afraid of leaving the one's I love behind because I fear they won't forgive you if you take my life so I ask that you save me now GOD