never know real pain till my little bro died found it hard to look as my hole family cryed,,, felt the hurt in my heart now My ma she's depressed she is always crying and she stopped getting dressed,,,, how the fuck has it happened my hole minds a mess,,i was trying to stay strong i was so sick with stress there was no fucken way i was letting it go have to bury him first so we had to lay low,,,,, can't believe that he gone he was only a kid fucking 20years old had his hole life to live,, this is so fucking wrong wish i could take his place as he lies in a box with his young baby face,,, hope he gets into heaven he was only a kid but he'had to survive so he did what he did it's very hard to walk straight if you live were we live,,,,20years gone by and your still fucking dead but your always alive in my heart and my head so i guess it's good bye till the day that I'm dead,,,, and i can't fucking wait cos i hate this place everybody with there smiles but there all to faced and i live in a pit and it's filled with snakes,,, hope im in God's plans for the great escape coz im always sad till were face to face i fucking hate this place,,,,i fucking hate this place