So when does your boyfriend think that we spoke last? Does he not know that til recently you lived in the past? Don’t he know that at the same time you was giving both of us ass? Don’t you realize that lately it’s me I wanna blast? Put on my mask everyday, don’t want no one knowing bout the pain Or the levels and intensity to how I feel this shame I look like a fucking idiot, cuz you had played the game Now when I think of love and future, I just don’t think the same My loss, his gain, and ain’t that how it’s always been for us? You broke my heart four whole times, now you don’t get no trust I used to be so shiny, but now I’m full of all this rust You gave a chance to a dude who saw you with lust, I must be nuts Need to get rid of this stress, just got rid of cigarettes And in my head all I can see is just yalls silhouettes Even before you left, I had still been depressed And I can’t help but just to be a silly mess But no regrets I mean at least my Chubzy had a mom One who loved him, never violated, put music on Used to bring him to the doctor once a month, I can’t be strong I wonder, will I stop writing these painful songs? Move on along, I mean I gotta try and reframe Ain’t no way I can turn this into a gain Going insane, don’t know who’s in my reflection Wonder if you ever mentioned The way I drowned you with mad affection Now all we got is this tension