Got sleep in my eyes, heart full of pain, The drugs in my system got me going insane. I’m rite on the edge and I know I’m bout to fall. Lite me up in flames and motherfuck it all. Heart seen better days and night flow slow. I’m sorry that I hurt you, I’m thinking I should go. But before I do just promise me this. That no matter what I’m someone that you’ll miss. Because the thought that I wouldn’t might put my soul on a list. A list full of death, dishonor and hurt. I literally lite it up in flames and smash it in the dirt. Do you know what it feels like to bare more pain than you can imagine it to be. Well let me keep on writing and maybe then you’ll see “ That life isn’t easy at least not for me. But I want no pity I just want my respect. Cause I’ve bottled it up, wrote it down, spit it and then hit reset. One day sorry I know just won’t cut it. And you’ll leave like everyone in the past. So I’ll take my last hit and pray the pain will pass. I’m sorry, I’m sorry…….. I’m sorry Sorry that I’m an addict and you didn’t love me as much as you acted like you did. _But I’ve always been there even when we were kids. But I mess up you walk away. But uiu mess up I bury all your pain. So while you’re out there praying and spreading the word. Just remember that I love you and I’m going home soon. But not to the home that we grew up in. The fucked up house that made me this. So while you watched the beatings and turned your eyes. I was being hurt I wished I would have died. Cause now that this world took me down and I took all your pain. You act like you don’t know me, But you didn’t feel the pain. So here I am out here standing in the pouring rain. Swallowed by the memories that makes me wanna scream. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry Sorry for taken all the beating away from you. Sorry for always protecting you, Sorry for standing there while blood ran from me it’s all I could do. But don’t worry bout my depression it is part of me. And don’t worry bout saying sorry cause I know you just don’t see. We all got our demons. But mine won’t let me be. I’m sorry, I’m sorry God I’m here, take me I’m sorry,