just wanna take back all the time That I wasted in these past few months  Tryna figure out who I am But I did it wrong but now I'm doing fine Without my babies though I don't feel alive I just wish I could rewind the clock To the point where we began To the nervous laughs and making hot baths To loving you all over again Yeah just take me back to when you were mine but I'd change some things cuz what's in my mind destroyed a whole entire lifeline I just gotta say some things to get up off my chest  Cuz if I don't do that my mind will never rest And I know this whole time everything has been a test Tracy I forgive you but you don't have the title of a  mom I'm sorry but I don't know you and we don't have a bond But I've moved on now and yeah its taken long I'm sorry to the loved ones that I've caused dread and pain It was me all along it was driving you all insane Now it's taken my name and these demons shred my membrane So the torment all around gets it's way in so easily How much more can I take when this shit is killing me I just wanna be the old me can my past set me free  Or is it gonna take eternity for them to leave me be  Let me wonder in the setting Let me ride into the dawn Cuz there's nothing gonna tear me down Nothing that the devil can form  I've realised tho that tryna fantasize can lead to traumatise So gotta live the truth instead of living lies Sometimes I gotta swallow my ego n have to compromise  with the people that are around me cuz they make me feel alive More than I ever have cuz I'm dying inside But I gotta swallow my pride and take on these massive strides Yeah they're very painful but I've came out stronger Nobody can beat me these demons they're the bait So go ahead give me everything you got Cuz I know deep inside all you hold is fucking hate So come n try n swing at me come on I'm an open gate I can demonstrate a stronger mental state Cuz I've opened my eyes now I'm following my fate Dunno when the pain will end tho there's no specific date So I'll carry some hope on my chest Don't mean I'll walk around with the symbolised S  Cuz I'm not the man of steel I easily get stressed N I cope in different ways n I struggle with my feels I guess we all have our own kryptonite That makes us feel weak but we still get back up But I've been fighting all these enemies without a goddamn cape Ive been doing it every day and every single night So no one can tell me I ain't doing it right  Cuz I can go through the day with a real smile on my face  N there's nothing stopping me now or slowing me from this race  It's time to change something I could never sit with  But I need to grow up, act like a man instead of sitting in your room debating drinking cans Drowning yourself in you own bloody sorrows I got responsibilities instead of picking up a bottle Cuz I'm not gonna be swaddled  I have to get back up and get back up n fight even if I start to wobble