Better with headphones @rapfame_official @rapfame_ar_team Yeah It’s been a year without you I can’t let go and I can’t move on I’m stuck I just wish I could go back Wouldn’t change anything… just want to be with you again I miss you I remember coming up when I ain’t have no friends Momma used to wipe my tears, say I was on the mend That’s why when I brought you home, baby boy you were so heaven sent Now without you here, I just get on a beat and vent It’s been exactly a whole year since I last saw your gorgeous face Been losing my mind without you, acting like a disgrace Thank God this ain’t a race, I’d fucking come in last place All day I been trying to send myself out to space It’s such a waste Tried to set a steady pace but I’m just falling behind Trying to do anything to get this out of my mind Trying to do anything to forget the day you was dying Tryna get stupid wasted to see if I can rewind Grief is just love with passing time I don’t feel fine I been shaking all day, I can’t stop crying, my body hurts Today’s the day I really wish I was laid under the dirt I’m drowning slowly, but swear I’m trying, for what it’s worth Put in the work, but without you I go berserk My best friend, my heart is broken and my demons, they lurk Emotions murked, I mean I can’t get thru just one day sober In situations like this, there’s no way I can get closure I just want my agony over, chip on my shoulder I remember we said goodbye, and your mom, I had to hold her It was over, fell apart, I lost myself and sobriety stopped My face was bloated from the crying and all of the shots At some point I drank out the bottle until my face was hot And lately it feels like I been living under a rock A world without you is like I’m stuck in a culture shock Said I’d let it rock and swear it’s you I tried to live without Every day I wake up without you, I wanna shout Gotta reroute my thought process, cuz I been having doubts That I won’t end my life, or that I’m really not devout I’m not about the kind of help where I can say I hit rock bottom Dear God, is he in pain? Please tell me you really got him Tell me he’s living free, no illness and no problems If anything comes up please tell me you’ll try and solve em I hate being apart from my baby, you fucking robbed him I’m sobbing, I mean every day it’s like there’s a part of me that’s still missing I hate to get ham and cheese from the fridge in the kitchen I miss him, I would kill ten men to kiss him My heart ain’t never healing, swear to you imma be with him Just listen, I’m telling you I’m screaming out for help I feel like all I do is numb my pain by making bud melt I been eating all my feelings, my clothes ain’t fitting, nor my belt Without your presence, baby boy, all I wanna do is yell And ain’t shit no one can tell me, I mean no one gets it, it’s fine Why I make this deep ass therapy every time I rhyme I’m always looking for signs and praying to the divine I can’t remember the last time I really felt myself shine Feels like all I do is whine, I gotta man the fuck up Even tho grief leaves me paralyzed, I can’t stand the fuck up I swear I work so hard and never really plan to fuck up And do my best to stay humble, not be stuck up But what’s what? I’m lost, feels like I have no purpose I look into the glass and the man staring back is worthless I heard this, and it’s not like I really deserve this The pain and grief, I swear it makes me wanna make a gun purchase I never said I strive to be perfect, and these expectations are heavy I don’t know how to get it together, when am I ready? I should have given you chocolate, you should have had spaghetti I’m begging you God, bring me back to the day he met me I’m ready, and I swear I’ll go if you let me When you see me standing at that bridge, wait for it then come get me I think it’s time to shed my burdens, finally be set free I’m tired of being apart, it’s gotta be unity