rapfame recorded I feel empty bc I'm depressed. I can't cope. What can I say? can u smile if ur unhappy? Spare me the guilt. i hate feeling this way.... Im tired of the exhaustion. u treat me differently like im some martian. u got cold like a winter storm on a lonely night in a small new York city apartment... is the truth that hard to handle.? if so, can u tell me why and explain. give me just one example? are u tired of dealing with the pain.... Stop toying with my emotions. its not a game. cut the crap? im from sunny south Florida. i moved to boca. just above Broward if u look at a map... city u can find it on a Google map... quickly like a good map... get away from the live in boca. around ppl who like to smoke crack . The hood is calling and Im answering. life is falling. i cant catch it. death is crawling so im paranoid now. the weight of it feels heavier than the obesity in Texas... im on the run like ur mammy at Publix shopping for dinner and running errands. rushing home to a fussy child waiting for a Happy meal at McDonald's with chicken nuggets... Life has its ups and downs. but dont let different opinions define u. i don't give a fuck how anyone else feels. my background in wisdom is based off experience. i have alot on my chest to talk about. it may sound surreal. now that im not at my best i express myself a little more. bc im blunt about what I feel... The proof is in the pudding. we talk alot less now. our emotions are at stake. The amount of stress i carry on about is a heavy burden and it never goes away... U change and act different when you go behind my back. Than pretend ur sorry. Who u think ur kidding. only a retart would accept ur apology... my mind is in a very bad state and it holds alot of depression. i have a monitor on my ankle. so my only hope is being granted a motion for suppression... Im under a lotta pressure over losing my sanity. i go coo coo when u go bananas. why do my nightmares get replayed when I fall asleep in my pajamas... bc 9 years is a bit much for a lesson meant to rehabilitate. I smoke so god damn much i probably blow thru a whole kilogram of weight... (once a week) face my consequences will the courts grant me a motion for suppression and express how i feel..... for example with free samples of of what i feel .. wisdom is the from experience, do i need to remind you.. gave me my wisdom. so make no mistakes told me don't let life define u.. . dont let the consequences define you... play good basketball. to alleviate my real late at night. with my second family my aunt toni on an errand. there is any hope . If u double cross me something you can handle? Let me lay it out. U want an example? Truth smacks like bass that blows a speaker. hitting harder than speakers Who lie and gossi regarding what they say... regarding every story about anything they say.. becomes a problem with a problem p who has a problem regarding who always invades . in my world who engages with gossip and lie about what they say.... about me talks shit and lie about what they say .... nonsense or address me about what you say... have to say .... u think i am that ur family paints a portrait of. They lie about make me out to portray ur first abo u say u saw my craziness u think u saw my craziness but u only saw a portion. feeling outta place like a martian .. i feel like a martian. so I bow my head down to pray. u call me a monster. regarding the rumors and gossip. and gossip u hear. how would you feel being called a monster u consider me a monster. and spreading rumors and gossip dont listen to the gossip. worry about for being labeled a monster u portray! Stop spreading rumors and gossip. Its not ur business how i live my life anyway, ok? and accept me despite how I act or feel. the truth. understanding or fathom feel like this every