i remember back in the day before the ods before are brothers an sisters went missing and others were sent up state we were good kids most of us fatherless to young to understand how to be a man we were killing are dreams i dont know if it was the pressure to be a respected man leader of the house before adalesance or if we were blinded by the the pain from the absence of love passed down generation to generation consumeing are familys bastards of are generation trying to breath pushed of and rejected by the ones we let get close thats why we chose to be the black sheep it made the world eaiser to see pushing off thaughts of search for the holy spirit even though mama tried at the time i just couldent slow down the depression 9 months gladeyator camp my first life lesson for me it hit me deep i saw my direction there were no open doors or unconditional opportunitys overloaded with a list of broken promises and failed attempts to trust so young so decived by the world and its demand for material things that finding hope in him spiritually wasent even a seed yo bezzee u wanna share something i need to breath these thaughts bring back memories lost faces some unsolved cases all the missed embraces wild took 37 to make this