u know one thing i need rn is my family. ever since ian been gone i felt all alone i haven't been myself it's so hard just to keep my head up . I'm ready to give up God has a better place for me cuz this pain n my heart makes it so hard to breathe The weight pushed on my chest maybe its just the way my brain works in how empty I can deal with anything God puts on me I never felt so fucked up in my life after being so happy in full of life i could not have nothing n be happy now I'm just empty in want it too be done like fr there nothing stoping fromm pulling back that gun .my family n my kids is everything to me ..man im out here going through it ever since I got throw in jail I thought I was living in hell I turned to u to to guide my life in look where u put me yeah life supposed to be hard but i cant keep going the road im on with everything that brought me light got ripped out my life the same day I come home my family means so much to me in what hurts the most is they did it to me my son watches me get hold off to jail cuz I was mad cuz someone broke his phone in i dont know my daughter anymore cuz family y did we drive 2 hours out the way to a place to where no one recognized her face like come on now God .. Jesus Christ take the demons out my life take away my pain in heartache let me be.. dear God plz just let me be me ..I want to feel more then pain in sadness guide me back to where I need to be I invite u in to take over i give my life to you it's n ur hands now lead me back to me so I can find myself again if u can I hope it's not too late in i dont already have that devil's date