My shadows call to me. Swallow me. Take every part of me. Every day my memory fades. I don't know I'm just hoping this is maybe some type of phase. From a distance, I can see something amazing, but it's obstructed by the haze. But I keep trying and trying, but my mind just won't replay. The only memories I have left are the ones that cause me pain. And the only ones that cause me pain, are the ones that cause you pain. So the pain that I actually held close since I was a kid. I let that shit, impact my life, as i grew up, since a little jit. So I would sit sit and sit there all alone no one to call my own no friends no Mom and Dad no home they were always high getting fucked but ain't no one gave a fuck. so please try to understand why I am the way I am you have no idea how much I wish we could go back to where we begin. it started off it's just trying to protect myself from getting hurt. one thing I learn in life everyone's out for themselves in their own worth. I closed off everything everybody pulled the curtains clothes and I would divert Ive been sitting here all alone in this goddamn room and I don't know what to do but I just can keep on going this way I can't keep going this way love love and until the day they put me in my coffin I swear to God you know I ain't going to keep on stopping but I'm going to keep on fighting and I'm going to keep on trying but I ain't going to stop no matter till the day I'm dying I don't know baby.