I have to ask what's the fucking point if I can get smoked like a joint where's the love oh there ain't none because we're to easily anoid or paranoid everything today ain't Makin a bit of sense so I see It void chasing a purpose Lord no disrespect but what have I done to deserve this my brawd was supposed to be the better half of a this GOD but instead she's never here for me I'm even she's odd I m never enough and she's way over the top if I run she'll walk if I'm quite all she'll do is talk if I try to hold it down she ain't no where to be found and in the back of my mind is what goes around comes back around when I'm lost to and fro I'm getting tossed i still try to pick up my cross though I feel the cost I have to stay bossed if I can't see thru this storm where do I find rest and now it's to the point if I lose her I see it as one bitch less no more stress maybe it's what's best besides every time I put her to the test she left but why is it that I'm supposed to forgive its not like I can forget its always there bubbling on the back burner festering waiting to be released I feel defeat and my life is stuck on repeat never missing a beat it's brought me to my knees it feels as if I can't breathe and she activates every fucking one of my pet pieves when I try to stay she leaves yet I try to be humble through all the grief grit my teeth and yet I still have hope after all her deciept and I'm to blaim for everything why should I carry this burden I'm tired of hurting how am I to be certain that in the long run its worth it is my love really working because every time Im away with the next dude she's flirting yet it's as if im stuck why do I find myself always giving a fuck knowing nothing is certain besides death here's a couple of QUESTIONs I WAS TAUGHT BY A FRIEND TO ASK is WHATS LEFT ? what's the reason I have this muscle beating in my chest where do I go what's it about why can't I walk away how do I look if I stay Im real why am I matched with fake is love real when all I get is hate why is it when everyone's asleep I'm awake why do I give and everyone else is take how can I stay humble while everyone else is irate what's at stake how do I stay real in a world of fake am I asking to much I'm here this is where I'll wait for your answer til then I'll be patient and trust all your ways