all i do is wonder oh i wonder all the time all i do is wonder why oh why i never decide to try as i sit here man all i do is wonder why all i do is wonder why i cry never try is it with the thoughts in the recesses of my mind is it because im always never on my grind all these thoughts that lie down deep inside all i know to myself is just lies just lies lately to myself been born to just despise oh i never try oh i never try never try oh boy i sit here and wonder why in meditation why i part my thoughts through the segregation pain is my complete dedication and the sudden realization pain is all i got that is my own destination that my mind is in desicration oh my minds desicration all i got left is my self dedication but i never try all i know is lies all i know is lies all i do is wonder oh i wonder all the time oh i wonder why all i do is sit here and wonder why oh why does shadow work help me try i dont know why the shadows help me not despise in the recesses of my mind they thrive through minds night never given me no frights just deep thoughts and very long nights im afraid of going up towards the heights guess im scared of fading light my pain is part of life right? my pain is part of life right? all i do is wonder oh i wonder all the time all i do is sit here in meditation all i do is think of self segregation all i got now is self determination through my minds eyes desicration feelinf like now man i got complete motivation gotta push through my own desicration through self dedication now thats it got the motivation