The pain it never leave I got to find a way to grieve All theses people say they love That’s kind of hard for me to believe Them rough times spent alone They leave me in a second Scatter in all directions Laughing at my imperfections The loud ain’t helping none Cause all I feel is pressure Im having nightmares of me bloody and Lying on a stretcher Who can I call a friendddd I only see you when im spending Knowing you just pretending and Only close because im winning Dear lord if you really hear me Tell my mama she feel so distant And I feel like I’m t.I. Right now because I really should’ve listened I’m 10 toes down for my family and she really would be proud She ain’t get to meet big legend and sometimes it’s hard for me to smile All I got is the pain