its real Pain im certin its on the Inside where it's lurking like its a curse thoughts wont stop lurking it's 4 certain , its a curse Its gotta be a curse .. .or is it a resolution whats next block walls filled with regrets its sencelless to me i can silence shit When the sun goes down and comes up ....its stilk dark even i know it shouldn't be like this i just feel like i need it all to quit reguardless Seems it wont stop so how do i make it its some fuvked up shit like the changes I've r made have no meaning It's No matter . Though Its . in my mind it's lurking like plots on me r still I ain't laughing about shit It's real life no matter .the risk s ..it seems lines get crossed and judgements are passed What's next extortion times 12 Its a gift you can call it round and round we go I'm all on it Why cant I call it Just catch my drift its hard when ths currents ,,,are swift I know it Its what matter to me I see no need for anything else it's all truth . Hands still shaking from the Glocks I've dealt Steady clutching paranoid all through my life it's not a temporary fix it's just a way of life Its the way it is . pTSD. Its a part of my Mindstate And it's no way to be its understood fully Its merky when the demons come out it's in my eyes its certin do u see it .look closely .. up close lts personal Its really lurking under the surface on the daily ... it's like I proof read the times I been hit its foolish an its crazy 2 me ,it' cost effective Still don't try and fool me its foolish 2 play wid me Its in the season there is a reason I gotta get it No safety needed ... Barrell! Threaded ed if need a ⁴when silence is needed .. ,it's a net , 12 stories up fuck it I'm jumping off this bitch I'm all in regardless of gunshots or anything else once again thin lines to becoming a product of the system death before dishonor to my family its the way i believe can't cry over spilt milk Back to shit like i used to it's Soul food for some to listen to I'm rentless with incentives,I'm increasingly close to loosening my patience .. to do right ..by someone whi doesent see the picture is far from being clear ..sometimes i think about shit and still my intentions stay pure regardless of facts I keep morals in place l I accept it like its a contactless payment,,, Its a catch phrase of sorts Fuck u pay me I need it it's certain like it is 2 a dream Its crazy phazes we live through it comes from the top of my mind stil it comes from behind the scenes It starts and its where it ends before u think .u never know when it can or when it will Its just life and the way shit is ... its 4 the best in the beginning we living to die it's a must to make the best outta what will come Day to day move by move, it's strategics that let u see old age in these streets it's cold therae no love for most Nothing more nothing less It's close to similarities if the game of chess End games fast approaching so do your best look at me and listen so it's understood Its a must I say fuck it it's a must It's a risk even i know Silent with the options when I'm on tha move .. Its made me who i am its in the darkness where it's lurking a playing field of dreams If u build it they will come they say . it's all to real and the world don't cut no breaks Its decided by fait that can't be changed like some sayit will get better fuk it and gun shit down... the whole while the time to the frames match on a random act looking at shit like wow ! It's violent it's the life we live in so we should accept it 4 It's crazy we know that More will come soon so watch and pay close attention keep your guard up and stay fully loaded and protect what u love at all costs Its so different now it's a part of me I've never played only times lost now I'll fight just to stay out the way How you liveing in a world and it comes to this If applied it becomes reckless .simple minds get simple answers then im under arrest it's murder on that beat no denying the lists Steady bucking till my death best believe it's on the inside and it's lurking it's to close for comfort so u know I'm borderline so I you read thais just know there's words are from sa moral level it's a place I don't even know how to explain