strange things been happening even my family turn their back on me I suppose they don't like the new Melody haters I can't stand still they need to kill the jealousy seems like they would rather me be committing them felony this is why my mind keeps telling me I've been serving of them sex since 93 always been pretty good at that facts but when I lost my oldest daughter I stopped dead in my tracks my life felt a pieces for 2 years and a bottle full bottle what kind of role model was that my angel will be watching me everything I'm doing I was doing a lot about s*** would surely ruin everything you going to do in your life she said stop what you doing you got other kids that need you if you dont try who else will lead the pack you'll go back and do it if you ever love me I'm going to need you to prove it she watching me as I do it kept my faith I work every single day she keeps pushing me she didn't die in vein she broke my heart see the light in my eyes strange things been happening