Life Struggles Contest Entry(If I didn't accidentally just upload it, I would've just put it in the Contest. ) I assume you'll play this and think he's out of his Mind, 10 Minutes well yes and Honestly this was just the Start of Something New and I had to push myself this Time Specifically, this Opportunity I couldn't let Slip, its the Opportunity I have Through, (For my Mom) in Honor of My Beautiful Wonderful Mother. 🙏. Something I just did for my Mom and well its a Struggle we all almost have to go Through but in Life when there is Loss from Someone you Love, one of Life's biggest Struggles is Understanding you won't understand the Depth of that Love and what they Meant to you, usually til after they're Gone. If you're Lucky, they got to know how much they Meant to You, while they are still Around. So if you Play this Track today and are around anyone that you Care for, and you truly do, let them know something Beautiful bout themselves that maybe you've never told them before, let them know, tell them something Nice, give them the Honor of knowing how much they are loved, before its to late. I just worked on this for over 5 hours straight, first hour before then I got only six minutes into the recording and my Battle Fame App Crashed, I the went for Round 2 right after and well after I did the whole ten minutes, I followed up with the Recording with a follow up Voice trailing underneath it or should I say, adding in another Voice to Guide the Narrative. Which then I spent the last four hours chopping it down enough for the Battle Fames Playback System and everything could handle it without crashing so some things got clipped as Everytime I tried to save it to see if it was Finally gonna not crash it'd of course crash, well just a few seconds ago it finally didnt and well honestly I meant to save it in my Drafts and give it a listen through before uploading it but what do you know, I ended up just uploading it unintentionally as it is. So I Hope it sounds Good and well like all you who come across it, Im bout' to see for myself cause, there isnt no going back now. Regardless of such events happening I wasn't gonna give up until I successfully recorded the whole thing whether I had to do it another thousand times, I was gonna make sure I got it Done! & to CLARIFY, At the very End I said live in the Moment but make the best of it, but I was leading to say one last thing but hit the 10 Minute Cap(which gave me the idea in the first play to have an underlying Background Narrative Voice, and so I was gonna say following "make the best of it" so i continue, "BUT you Must remember to be Thankful for each Moment you Live, for you came from someone who wanted you more than Anything and be Grateful for them, always in your Lives, especially if they are and are kind, and never take them for Granted, for One Day it can get as worst as it could possibly ever Get, and there is no Hand to Hold, No Phone to Call, no Bad Dream you are to awake from, no Time to change anything, just a Reality and Memories of them along with what you have around to Remember them by. So always be Thankful for the Loved Ones that Sacrificed Everything to see you Survive into your Adulthood, be forever Grateful if you still have Time with those Close to you in your Life. " I really did think I had the Potential to get big enough and get myself known big enough to find Mom her Kidney Donor, I'm not looking back saying what if, I'm saying I shoulda pushed harder for what I wanted and believed in Myself like I've grown into Now, but thats the catch, through my Early Twenties I was still looking into the real world for guidance that I was blind to see I was looking in all the wrong things, places and people when instead of Helping Myself get to where I had the Opportunity to Be, I fell to helping others and Sacrificing Time for People who I thought was Supposed to Help and so I let my Opportunities fly off in the wind for Years when I coulda been already there, where I seen myself at. and so coming into the last Five Years, I remember 25 I thought I was in my Prime, I laugh as now, I see I was still learning how to Walk because at the Age of 25 I finally was trying to Live for Me and the Goals and Dreams I set out to Achieve, something I shoulda been doing 5 Years prior, and so as the story unfolds I rebuilt myself and realized where I had to grow and was pushing for it, I then grew closer with my mom as I finally had a stable Balance coming to 28 and finally was able to feel like, okay its Time, I'm ready now, and I was but just lacked the Understanding of how it, even as 25 sure I was fresh at finally Getting things Achieved, but I didn't think I could do it on my Own entirely, by 28 I finally started pushing for Equipment and a Laptop cause I was pushing my Music on here, but still I held back, and then 28 around December my Mom had an accident and lead to 8 months of Recovery over a Year of Physical and Mental Recovery, I was Blessed to be able to be there for my Wonderful Beautiful Mother each and every day helping her get the Motivation and Strength to Keep pushing, and I really grew to know she was always Best Friend. I remember sitting in a Car when I was just 7 and she telling me how to always be Real and never tell a Lie, she showed me Courage and Strength through her Perseverance through any Tough Time and Admiration through her Act as a Loving Human Being who would help anyone in the World however She Could, and she liked to do it especially sometimes without making a single Sound for she wasn't about the Credit from Helping, she truly loved the Joy of Helping Others. I know I said and yelled to God in the Hospital it was supposed to be me, I was supposed to get her Better Days! and my Cousin was right that Day, he said "I believe you did get her better Days, you being there for her all these last few years helping her and being there for her, through everything, she had her Better Days with you, You did that." this Cover Picture is on the Week before my Moms Birthday this last August for she had to go to Dyalisis on her Birthday last year so it was the weekend before, and we was going to hit up a Casino bout two hours away from where Live. That Smile was just a Glimpse but oh the Smile she had on her Face that Day would brighten up Worlds, as bright as the Sun. She was the Strongest Woman I've ever known and never once was a Burden, she was an Inspiration, she was the Funniest, she was my Best Friend, and by the Grace of the Gods, it was an Honor to be Born by such an ANGEL. She is no longer suffering she is no longer in any Pain, she can now travel and go wherever she wants to Go and not have to wonder if she has to Limit herself because of any Condition or Illness, she finally can do as she Pleases and not have a Worry about in this World. For Shes went to a Better Place and Oh I hope your having a Great Day Mom, I can't wait for the Day I get to hear you sing "I wanna hold your hand" and instead of pulling away like a young kid, ill do it in a Heart Beat, you were truly a Queen and deserved the luxury of Living like One, you made any room brighter and more alive when you were in it, and quieter when you weren't. I can't wait for the Day I get to see you and Talk to you Again and you get to tell me about your Day and all the things you've seen along the Way, I don't know when, I don't know how, I can't be certain on those Things but I know I'll do my Best while I'm down here to make you Proud of Me, sure I may have my Days and my Troubles, as I Grieve and Weep from Time to Time, but I'll do my Best from here on out to Live and not Settle or Limit my Potential, I Promise I'll give it my All and to Live as much as I can, while you're watching it all unfold, from up Above. I hope your Okay Mom, and have a Great Day Today! I love you Mom. Your Loving Caring Son, ~Christopher Bell. #Down2earth #goingthedistance #intentionally #formymom #contestentry #lifestruggles #real #raw #whereimat #livingoninherimage #thankfulforthelifeshegaveme #nevergiveup #dontquitonyou #realhiphop #rapfamesbest #truth #allheart #myeverything #NewEraSuperStars #followme