This Life take one

I just wanna live stress free for once in my life sick of having wings but can never fly or having a stick without a scythce spy with my little tiny eye that I am way more better than they have advised like I don't wanna take no haters advice I listen to my self cuz this is my life now here's the verse with every single bar I struggled to write when failure intertwined with my dim shine and at the same time lost everything that I considered mine except my sinner mind which got me paralyzed with my pair of eyes I don't see a paradise just a broken heart I had to sacrifice from a thousand lies and its bout to flatline like when a phone dies and goes offline or like a sideswipe from someone offsides and I don't really know who's on my side cuz every damn time I turn my back yea there's a fucking knife and it leaves me traumatized so I took that knife and I cut all my ties I don't want negative influences in my life infecting my positive vibes I just wanna live stress free for once in my life look me in my eyes n see I sacrificed time of a life that involves happiness I got darkness n loneliness now I really crave this life it's all I'm really craving now (Slow Powerful Talk) GIVE ME THIS LIFE NO GIVE ME THIS LIFE I REALLY NEED THIS LIFE SO YOUR GONNA GIVE ME THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW Hey I really want this Life like I need this life I believe in my rhymes My nose bleeds lines Erasing shavings everytime I write Cuz I can't decide until my pencil just dies While lead with Pride but I don't be lying I used to be sad like a lil bitch I was always crying But ADHD in my brain gave me sumthin that kept me grinding Now I'm cutthroat just like Tri Is This is my environment thats full of violence its so Triffling everybody got rifles n everybody wildin till they hear them goddamn sirens Then they snitching avoiding them trials And Well Couldn't keep quite and yea I stayed silent Yo Why's it like this? I don't know why kid but how do we fight this? I'm only man not a mad titan Even tho I'm reciting just like a fireman and the situation dire Since this is really what my heart desires I rewired my mind because I don't know where it lies...like is it God? Or the the Devil In disguise? I just wanna know who my guide is and why I can't empathize with another mind!!! I sacrificed my light so I can Take this Life... This is my life..