somethin bout this beat make me feel real empty. I don't know what it is. I don't know why. what could it be? imma take it and use it to produce some off the wall rhymes. strike up them lines. if I could change the past, I'd do it fast. so much time lost. feelin sadness creepin on meh. at least I'm not phoney. where my honey? her name was Guinevere. she left me cuz I couldn't put down the needle. she was a great woman. I miss her much. feelin like a dunce. once upon a time I used to be drug free. that's when I met her. I miss her so damn much. once she left a big part of me died. never cried. i shoulda tho. the dope kept me cold. a few things in life took some life outta me. surprised there's anything left. always theft. was supposed to go straight, instead I took a left; hard left. wishin that I left that dope alone. there was too much pain. had to numb up. been so many years. now I'm in tha clear. where she at tho? I'll never know. sold my soul. now I got these double edge elbows and these four doors. funna swang and bring the pain; switchin lane. mfkn insane. and I miss bobcat. that was my cat growin up but he was more like my dawg. he kept me with good company through everything. I miss him so much. had to be in the room when we put him down. that took so much outta me. I miss you bobcat. RIP TO my dawg bobcat. one of these days imma be with you man. RIP Mattew Nilan rip Michael Nilan Maria Nilan and Mark Nilan. peace out.