my trailer home is filling with carbon dioxide hope that I don't die as its heating up why are you tweaking corrosively losing your teeth all week pay yourself tho run some respect I guess it's time to get clean for set stop inhalling those ch3micals for your best you haven't eaten in weeks or showered in days do I have any thinhg left to give running on fumes no gas statins around And did I give it everything that I had to be a dad where did I fail take another stab or another jab o look now I'm still searching all im finding subtracts discovering nothing should have would have could have had the honest effort to stand but I'm stuck on substances break the chains I'm just wishing on a broken star take me from this pain lay opinions out no respect is found Honestly where did I go wrong I've been going out of my mind trusting the crowd falling for it gullibly is that even a word silly syllably making things up for fun trying to fix everything broken #1 never done like I'm Bob building my life to fall switch that sentence popping out all because who talks about Bob the builder at all Sacrifices make me stand tall I'm a man now got to stand up got to prove that I can make it Chase everything till I feel vacant nothing gives me the love I require surviving is it impossible initialize the step to be enveloped by a life and world of success accurate NSX Dubai sit in Bangladesh think I just banged your wife in the sink of the kitchen at your next birthday imma tell you what a shot from a Sig Sauer right through you Swiss cheese no move checkmate better check yourself I don't need to prove F1blasted off too long numbing out my problems on this on that doesn't really matter and now I'm drowning in my vomit on my back in the bed should have been getting head from the baddest b**** at that party Adderall popping met this gnarly now my life is f***** up hardly see the tunnel it is over cry for my mother cold shoulder know that she has to bury her son and that's not right listening to me as I cry always asking for help comes suicide aftermath of ignoring the cry for help being told to walk it off and manage myself I'm a man can handle it you're a man can handle it too f*** it she got a sex change now she's a man and everybody else is a goof what am I even saying dude think I stood in front of the microwave too long waiting for my food brains fried off radiation guess I'm still waiting for success now I'm contemplating why I'm standing in the same spot that I've been standing in trying to find something to manage my words together my head is severed not on the shoulders I can't find it I'm sitting on the shoulder got my face in my lap as a choke and overdose on them drugs that I did yes substances this is an issue I need to fix my life and can't prove leaving my kids behind that should be a crime not locked up but I'm locked up forever life sentence doing drugs now my life is severed just pray that I can say Mom Dad please forgive me and God give me a chance to do it again please I'm truly sorry it's disease I let get out of hand so my last words may make a chance second chance you don't get too chances at life don't dance with the Devil given a foothold stronghold taken football fields away even further now lost and strangled full of weight drowning in the middle of the ocean nobody can save me all of my being searching for something I didn't need to search for maybe good riddance baby Yeah, uh Damp moldy basements where I grew up Yeah, uh J. Cole style, let's go Verse 1: Raised in the darkness, where dreams were confined Damp moldy basements, where I left my old rhymes No heat, no light, just shadows of despair But I found my way out, now I'm breathing fresh air From the bottom to the top, I climbed the ladder of success No silver spoon, just my hunger and finesse Every obstacle I faced, I conquered with my grind In those basements, I found my purpose, my prime Verse 2: I reminisce on days when the mold covered the walls Couldn't see the light, but I still stood tall In the depths of struggle, I found my inner strength In those basements, I learned to go to any length To escape the darkness, to chase my wildest dreams I turned the pain into fuel, ignited the scene Now my words resonate, they echo through the streets From those damp moldy basements, I rose to my feats Verse 3: No silver lining, just moldy ceilings above But I turned those basements into a place of love I'm the product of my environment, I embrace the struggle Through the cracks in the floor, I found my hustle From the shadows to the spotlight, I made my mark J. Cole style, I leave my lyrics stark I'll never forget those basements, where I grew up They shaped me, made me who I am, no matter what Yeah, uh Damp moldy basements where I grew up Yeah, uh J. Cole style, that's what's up (Verse 1) In my trailer home, I'm feeling the pressure, Carbon dioxide, suffocating, it's a measure, Tryna find some air, but it's getting harder to breathe, Juicy WRLD in the game, watch me achieve. Feeling trapped, no escape, it's like a cage, But I won't let it define me, I'll break the stage, Gotta find a way out, gotta stay alive, I'ma keep on (Verse 1) Loosing my mind, missing my kids, trying to provide In this world full of chaos, where the pain resides Mama always told me, "Son, keep your head up high" But the weight on my shoulders got me asking God why I work day and night, grinding just to make ends meet But the system's stacked against me, feeling incomplete I'm fighting for my family, trying to break free But the struggle's getting real, it's hard to guarantee Every dollar I earn, I invest in their dreams Hoping one day they'll escape this vicious regime The streets are calling, but I'm holding them close Teaching them the right path, keeping them away from the ghosts My heart aches when I can't be there to tuck them in bed But I'm hustling for their future, that's what keeps me ahead I'll never give up, no matter how tough it gets I'm a father on a mission, breaking through all the nets (Verse 2) My mind's in a frenzy, thoughts racing through my brain Trying to provide for my kids, release them from this pain I'm trapped in this struggle, but I won't let it define Me and mine, we'll rise above, the sun's gonna shine I see the tears in their eyes, when I'm not around But I'm working overtime, grinding on this battleground The world's against us, but we'll never surrender I'm fighting for their future, their dreams I will render I'll break down every barrier, conquer every wall For my kids, I'll rise, standing tall, never fall They're the reason I breathe, the fuel to my fire I'll keep pushing forward, never stop, never tire So, when the nights get dark, and the struggle feels immense I'll remember my purpose, my kids, my defense I'm loosing my mind, missing my kids, trying to provide But I'll never give up, for them, I'll always strive