looking back on everything everyday of my life, all the days i didnt think id make it through the night, taking chances dancing with the devil stand up on my level, been through hell and im still yelling where im headed aint no telling. every mistake gotta take it as a lesson. even though i lost it all im still grateful for the blesson. i know the ones that love me really hate to see me stressing. but i keep it to myself because i hate to be depressing. bury me alive with my anger and aggression. point me in the right path ill go the opposite direction. to myself i a stranger but i guess that i accept it. told my mama that im sorry and i know that ill regret it. stubborn as motherfucker yep there i said it. i don't really care if the shoe fits wear it. but my sneakers seen better days they ripping and they tearing barely got a soul if i untie em will trip and get to heaven. simple ole me dont know my complexion quit looking for a way out when they closed down the exit. remember where u from shit can change in a second. gas on top of flames not thinking it would spread it. but who am i to blame, im just losing to game. theres a few ways to explain what its doing to my brain. im confused about the pain fucking stupid thats the thing but the fucking difference is it ain't brusing me the same. shoot for the moon dont be shooting just to aim and never take a shot if you using a blank gotta get back on track like im moving a tank bulletproof my mind put some blues in the bank. take a step back come unglued from the paint. one day ill snap out of it and come back to reality make my family proud of me and go to family gathering. my family never doubted me but they know what I'm battling. a dead end roads the only one i been traveling. tryna keep my balance dealing with it as its happening. build the bridges that i burn watch em all collapse again i done got so good at it you'd think i been practicing adding to my problems shoulda been subtracting it. but it don't matter amount of dirt that you drag me in. lead by example thats the fact of matter since i learned to relax be decisive with the time i spend ima rinse my hands soon as this never ending cycle ends. lotta people left me shocked like a bolt of lighting hit. made me think twice about the way people can lie and grin. me against gotta do one just to comprehend thats the way i can explain to you where my coinsounce been. kick me while im down i already know that im targeted when everythings gone theres else left to bargain with. earning me a permanent journey it dont concern me and im starting to realize that that some people dont deserve me . gotta take a break dont even know why im in a hurry. the hour hands 20/20 the minute hand visions blurry. im ready to be clean cause im sick of living so dirty. I know God shaking his head at all the times that hes heard me. what am i to do about all of these demons that cursing me. try to imagine the vica versa of a burglary. use that 5 my