There's a tugging in my mind in my brain it's driven me past the point of acknowledging the pain past the point trying to refrained its got me tamed I dont even think about trying to switch lanes anymore Some call it the game but there isn't now winning there's only comparing each others shames and changing our names Sometimes it's sunny and sometimes it rains but every day regardless I feel my self sucking further down this drain And at this point I've come up with all the excuses but honestly I'm theory one to blame. I don't remember who I used to be but I know miss her terribly but she not me she's not me she was free I miss me I'm possessed by this poison I'm slave to this poison I'm way past sipping I'm falling on this poison I hate this poison whish O had never tasted wish that I had listened I feel forsaken In fee defeat even when I'm up i feel like I'm losing my pride has taken a beating I don't think it will ever heal from all this brusing I'm not living I'm just cruising to and from the poison I'm smiling and laughing but I'm always disappointed in myself no matter how well I keep it hiding I don't want to live with this poison but still it always in my blood I always give in I'm so fucking sick of this monster that is me I'm overpowerd and barely maintaining I'm headedb towards crashing and burning fucking in hate this I miss living I'm broken