childhood

My life has bin dark from day it all started a birth my very first day on the earth dad is a addict that beats my mum everyday this I what happen in yard and he almost killed her to one of my younger sisters got a scare because of you and what you gone done you affected you're son and now I got P.T.S.D well I had it back then to 4 I was finely take from you along with my other 3 siblings to but their to young to remember what you would do we had no food cuz in you're vains you wanted to shot some dark but I always knew I would have habit cuz from ten you sent me to grab it and that's why I hated being with you're side of the family why did I have to grow on my own like the streets is the only place I can call home even at 8 i could stay out as late as I liked 3.am I'm coming in then the house is dark and everyone's in bed so I smoke a ciggy before I lay down and close my eyes when I wake up it's 12.am I ain't going to skl or the next day nither cuz I got kicked out this kid he had a really big mouth and I thought a screwdriver would sort it out and now there telling me this can be done but I don't care cuz I'm young and dumb knife I normally carry 2 that way I can strike till red in a real quick way but if you ain't got one then I'm down to fight oh I don't need a blade that's right cuz growing up I had no choice but to fight just to survive in the ends everyone's a snake in the grass I don't need no friends cuz I got me myself and I I'm a teen but I'm an evil guy you can get robbed just by looking in my eye but I had to slow down 16 and I'm looking at life for robbery with a knife and GBH with intent but because what I was born in 2 and mental health they gave me a choice listen to those around before it's only yourself you can hear and that's crazy cuz I am my biggest fear