yea okay heres a hard one for my homies, momma told me as a kid you gon be real big, live in the hills in a mansion like bryan cranston, never gon do the breakin bad tho, methamphatimines not for me tho, yea here we go, double stacks on double stacks, what i do? i hit the gas, damn look at that ass, she a 10 i guess ill pass, cause love for myself aint real good, so i cant really feel good when a good girl love me for real good, i guess i just pop another pill, good, drugs fuckin drownin me i dont feel good, ima buy another car just to feel good, ego got me stuck in a simulation i cant break it, im in the matrix and i hate it, my heart not beatin right anymore, he said she said everybody hate me some more at least that what it feel like to my core, its like a draft and i cant close the door, the glass pinnin me in and its gettin smaller again, i dont know where i been, i just woke up trapped again, its like im dreamin and the dream ive been in reality collapsin in, fuck how do i get outta this again? fell for love again love lost, the love ive been in i pay the cost, losin again and lost, my reality like a portait, stuck in time, i dont know how to unwined, everyone leavin me fine, i guess ill go back in time, live in the past, its the only safe place i know its the home where i go, shit you dont know, cause i got these memories in me coming out like a flow, its the heaven i know, dont know if its my early life or a past life i just dont know, wanna make racks on racks give it away in cash, back when i was a kid livin in hell, momma was the devil and dad was an angel who fell, livin that way nothin ever really helps i was a broken shell, now im raisin outta that hell, made friends with my demons now i need them, in particular parts of my life i feed them, livin for freedom, living to spread the love we all needin, damn, yea love is a game to me, plays with my mind and makes me crazy, a girl likes me? than i like her too, ima fall love in like 3, its a viscious cycle i cant break in me, bpd in the things i see, like i need love from every fuckin body, and if one little guy dont like me, ima fuckin piece of shit yea probably, feels like a mask ive been livin in, this is my life but where the fuck i been? guess after that mental breakdown, from being rejected by one date now i feel like i aint worth a thing and it never gonna workout, im ashamed, im tired, im spaced out, dissasociating every minute, i cant take the pain i been in it, feelin like i been sinnin but that aint right, cause i been tryin my damndest but the more i try, the more lies come in to my mind like i am not alright i am not fine, guess ill take another shot to ease my mind, pop another pill to numb the things i feel, cause ive tried to feel the pain before, but my heart just breaks more and more, i guess ill live this life in ecstacy waitin for someone to rescue me, you dare see the things i see, lets see whats left of me, my heart beatin slowly i dont even know me, feelin like my light fadin partially, i know its a test of my life but how do i lose everyone and still be alright, still be able to try, still live my life and not wanna die, just feels like things come on too fast, and i aint gonna last, as i take my last breath i pass love and light the best i can try as i slowly die not knowing where i will lie.