all i ever really needed was some confidence- but you aint ever give that to me so im high as shit- and all i do soul searchin why do life exist- dont ask god y cuz he aint neva ever answer shit- and when i die they prolly have alot to say bout why i did this why id do that and why im livin this way- prolly look me in my eyes and throw me rite to the flames- cuz all the shit that i did it went against what he say- why would i pray why people preaching everyday - be givin me false hope like all this pain gona change- i wonder if i can change or prolly blow out my brains r follow my uncle rick or take it another way- im doin this for my fam the reason im here today- the reason why i dont pray is nothin aint gona change or magically get better unless i do it my way- im tryin to understand how people have so much faith-i cant breathe im telling you cant breath but no one listen to me its hauntin my dam dreams- they give me some mo pills i use em to go to sleep and now im stuck in a cycle i hope i dont od- can somebody help me cuz all the drugs i take i dont think its really healthy- im tryna be here for my family and see anotha day but nobody understand me- can somebody help me cuz all the shit i been thru i dont think its really healthy- im tryna be here for my family and see my graduation but nobody understand me. lately i been feelin like the devils watching laughing cuz im out options dam near oxycontin- life is like im in the ring and i am boxing tyson- 12 rounds beat me down and im still tryna fight it- will i make it out can somebody tell me tho underdog tryna sco referees be dirty tho- life been crazy bro barely live ta thirty fo- will i see 85 nobody will never know. percocet- pull a fuckin tech- split yo neck -bitch im bout respect- pop a wheelie stupid trick im bout ta flex- nah im kidin i been caught up in a mess- ever since i been feelin like half a man- but fuck that shit i got a plan to make it out and