Might not believe it but I travel with demons The shit I seen throughout my life got me passing the preachers cause I don’t need it I been down and out in battle defeated Feel like the rapture succeeded and I’m here trapped with the heathens If you could look behind my eyes then you might see what I’m seeing Or take a trip go through my mind and it would be like your dreaming Cause only nightmares they exist when you seen people deceasing gasping trying catch they breadth but they soul up and leave ‘em I Had a dance with the devil and I’m still at the dance Washed the blood off my fingers but it’s still on my hands It’s fucked up But within myself scared of my inner self Cause I done been through hell and know how it really felt To handle all the pressure try and do it alone I can’t share the way I’m feeling it might ruin my home Because that beast deep inside of me that did things so violently The devil manifested in flesh and it was probably me Looked in the mirror took the mask off Faced myself trying make up for my past wrongs Standing with my back against the damn door maybe I could stand strong Hoping I can write it but not make it to a sad song And best believe that I been praying for peace Traumatized ptsd not as strange as it seems Self reflection understanding I’m a danger to me That’s why I like to be alone don’t let the anger release Sometimes the thoughts so vivid that I can’t even think And other times gotta focus cause I can’t even breadth I never thought that this the way it would be That the memories replay so much I can’t even sleep So most nights I sit outside and smoke blaze and repeat Alcoholic but can’t do it so I’m shaking to drink Damn Y’all understand it’s the most painful of things To have to walk around like you was on them balancing beams It seems That’s the way that god had planned it to be They say our will is always free but it was handed to me So I’m just trying make the best of it and land on feet Trying keep myself afloat just like the sand on the beach