I need my medicine of relief pray j get over the grief and due time I get better in time the living cold hearted with no remorse cold heart want heat up unless my feelings involved causing casualties to cry and Mourn for me and missing me like I missed them but it's my time move on from the regret and the past that I carried as baggage fortune tellers telling me what I don't see b u t they are right to what I don't and want I bring and I could tell alot of people depressed in me even with me being depressed in myself I am turning over a new leaf and I new way I know what real love is now some so it toxic because I made it that way you can't help who you heart love under the circumstances that you don't understand how much I love and adore who you are you made me man up even when. I couldn't I realize you are the truth a real woman that I took for granted I can man up and say I was wrong its always two sides to the story I guess my side of the story want make it the end my rainy days still don't get no better I feel angels calling when I feel like taking my life to much on mind makes it hard to write and confine in the pain from built up pressure I need to relieve and relief try not to break down I know I am blessed and many people depending on. me but I feel I caused to much hurt and pain and I hold grudges I shouldn't hold on too thats the guilt ripping my gut cutting the surface to soul tie thats still connected