suicide been on my mind remix to the last shit I was feeling death don't sound so bad if you love me then why let me go to jail on issues thats unclear that could've been compromise if you wanted out you should've said that now my heart is at the point of no return with no feelings just high in the clouds with anger turning me back to savage to turn rapping to my passion I know you thinking about me like I am thinking about you but can't dwell on the past dwelling it will never be structure with your kids in life I wish you well even though you wish me hell there is no such thing as love yea just a four letter word that don't mean shit two years gone down the drain comparing me to them other niggas but you forget I had your back through it all even though you turned your back but have to nerve to still call and think my people gone turn against me because you sick in the head with two baby daddies and three kids living isn't easy until I came to rock your world and be your night in shiny armor but it was just dream you can't handle me at my worst so I know you will never handle me at my best made sacrifices with you when I shouldn't should've posted you but I didnt just to many hidden agendas to your pain and you wonder why I didn't say much is because behind close doors sometimes we stay to long in situations we don't understand blocking the true blessings to come I can't forgive you lost my freedom to the law and my character now I am criminal never thought I would be most of all lost my best friend I knew it was coming to a end never thought it would end with a lie with the law I guess that's my karma what I reaped for staying to long long lasting putting a innocent man behind bars I will never understand woman that's been hurt by the past it's deceiving because why I was believing In you u wasn't believing in me just assuming and accusing me of my past that don't exist but get mad when. I go back to back with my past but why would I do that if I thought you were my ending to my future to one time in life where I wouldn't have to look just know this shit causing depression because I never thought sleepless nights where I don't sleep I feel hate toward the world like no one can be trusted and I keep thinking about ending myself so I wouldn't have a heavy heart cold hearted with no fucks giving but I still love you hate the fact a lie did this to me with my karma calling it's crazy how my emotions don't feel a void of a broken heart I caused