i cant take it I'm suffocating my heart's racing my mind been steady pacing all actions that were taken now mistaking just for fun in my moment grief searching for a moment of relief just looking for another second of peace so I can eat but today it seems like it won't release you wouldn't understand because you can't see you ain't me ADHD is a thing thoughts so loud of all the negativite passive actions I can be Ive had to surpress an keep deep inside locked with this key an I feel as as ugly as can be my mood swings not what's wrong with me am I broken in my mind and why cant I sleep I just need to keep these thoughts that screaming so loud I don't need to be this suffering so i keep a mental note of all the things wrong with me and what I haven't done an you wouldn't believe I wake up everyday just to battle all the thoughts of why I'm spun but you don't believe theres these underlining problems just a glimpse of what I didn't achieve but that's the past im a problem that should go to sleep I blow my dreams and forget about my company they deemed a menace to society really I'm a menace to my own sobriety somebody save me from this lonely abyss I'm stuck in here with myself an there's no one that can get or handle it shit my life is what they don't get so some one tell me this why do we continue a life that's been so fucked up since kid my mom never ment to have a daughter serving a 20 piece or a ignorant son that's lost in his head with the thoughts of no remorse in the end still we continue to punish our kin from the problems we amend it don't seem right and I'm a product of of the environment I just want to laugh and enjoy all the little things but I can't fractured fragments of a life I wont be able to get an unmanageable justice system has me tied up like a toy for profitable ready to make a example out of me kind of coye so there's no more joy that I can see hard to seek a laugh when you part of a broken family never thought I would make it this far it's a curse or a blessing I don't know but it's hard either way this is my fucked up day and I chose to write it down in hopes that one day it'll pay but the only home I see comes from a second I can think I'm worth being me back one day