yeah i sit and wonder every night if everything will be will alright. i ask myself why but then i tend to break down and cry. i lie all the damn time and say im fine but in reality im not. i not fine im not alright im not ok but i just have to push through all of the damn pain. fuck the lies and fuck life . everybody always sayin ill be ok but idk bc i cant stand all this fuckin pain. so i lie and lie and cry askin god why. what did i do to deserve this ig i should have just listened. should have seen the signs. now i lay awake staring at the ceiling tryna find myself but i aint feelin it. so ill just keep up this lie and say that im fine whenever im dead inside