so many thoughts on mind anf indont kno how to get out my Head can somebody please tell me what's this world coming too amd what am I supposed to do in a world like this those that said they love me were quick to fotget me my heart feel empty they say they love me amd keft me growing up all i ever wanted was to feel loved but as time wemt on lofe showed me that no one really gives afuck as a kid i ALWAYS felt alone tge streets i rome by my lonely wondering how can people be so phony even those that were suposed to be my homies act like they dont know me and its kije when i need you kost your ghost and gone woth the wind so never again will i put my trust in a so called friend i cant sem to get out side my head and tbese voices got me thinking crazy shit maybe its all the drugs i consume tbat got me thibking this way.m thinking insane i wish i can just get lost for a day and forget about life for a little while even as a little child i felt like this its fucked up and for so long ive been stuck in a rut sometimes i just feel like giving up a fant go on lije this anymore but then i think of my kids band for them i gotta stay strong for even on days that im feeling numb and i take a look in to the vanity and dont like who ive become ill still hold on too my sanity and continue to roll onand strive for a better way i oray amd asj God for betterdays amd to let the Sunshine cuz im so tired of all these rainydays i get high every day cuz its the ony way i know how to take the pain away but all that ever did was make those tgat said they love me stay awayso manybthat said they love me left me and were quick to firget me and now .y heart feels empty bjt through it all i remain humble and when most thought inwould tumble and hold my head high knowing that i made it this far but i coukdnt do it with tge up above and everyday i pray and thabk the kitd for his love amd for his Grace even when the i take a look in the vanity and dont kije who ive become for so long i been stuck in a rut inside my head amd camt get out im think its beat for me to just not give a fuck anymore and with everything going on around has me feeling realy down they say your a man you know how silly that sounds when i try to talk about how im feeling gkad that i made it out ao many fucked up situation i done been in feeling lije a loser even when im winning cuz all they ever told me was i would never amount to shit if i could i would mix up every drug and smoke a pound of it and fix up a cup of liquor amd start downing it drowning in my own sorrow dont even knkw if i wamt to kive to see Tomorrow they say that tomorrow is not promised and time is only borrowed sonif i shall die before i wake i oray the lord my soul you'll take hopoing to se my mom at the pearly gates lord wil i be forgiven more ny mistakes i want to apologized for all tge bad choice's tgat i made truth is its been hell on earth and kifes been hard on a mexican so when indoe i ask God please open heavens gates and ket me in cuz i want to be in peace for eternity when I die ibfeel i already paid my dues with everything that i been thorough in thislofe of mine