I'mma start like this, Everyone that used to know me don't know s***, I am completely different now than when I was kid, I don't even know where mine lives Ain't that a bitch, People ask me how I tell them I'm fine cuz I don't have the time to tell them how s*** really is I've been getting high this i admit, blood on my hands, i aint been the same man since, I've been doing drugs too much, Hope I od be fore happens again, I won't keep living this, I'mma fuck everything up Imma drink like fish, Imma stay so numb that I don't even know what's going on cuz ignorance Bliss, Ive been taking all this s***, just to help me forget, But it doesn't it work, It's Just been makin it worse, But I felt like it did, Was hell of a trip Mental illness Every time I that I spit You get the gist I'm going crazy I Yell at the mic like I'm throwing a fit, Beretta Gon sing with me emptying clips, At all them people who talking that shit, Don't get put on that list Life is a b**** you going to get what you give PTSD from the s*** I relive it is what it is, They say it's a gift, My soul getting split, Just like a wig if they f****** with this Part 1