This heartfelt song delves into the depths of my life's struggles, exploring themes of despair and thoughts of hopelessness. It touches upon the anger I harbor towards those who have wronged me. I express the turmoil within, finding solace either in the fleeting moments of temporary relief or in numbing my pain with worldly pleasures. The lyrics convey a sense of pleading for help, almost like a prayer to a higher power, yet accompanied by a feeling of surrender and giving up. The song speaks from a place of perceived failure and a sense of missed opportunities in life. It oscillates between moments of introspection and a raw, intense release of emotions towards those who have caused me pain. It also mourns the feeling of wasted time and a deep sadness when looking back at my life. Throughout the writing process and even now, there's an underlying sense of an impending darkness that could potentially alter or even end my life. I hope that sharing these lyrics and emotions won't change your perception of me, but rather foster a genuine connection through understanding and empathy.